Dearest little bean,
Tomorrow marks 6 weeks! Halfway through the first trimester! And your little heart started beating this week and in 23 days, we get to hear it for ourselves and see your cute little gummy bear body! Time is already flying by. It’s crazy.
I’ve been stressing out about so many things concerning you. And your dad keeps reminding me to calm down because the stress isn’t good for either of us! But I just want your life to be good, our life to be good. And I know it will, it’s just so much to think about and 9 months, well 8 1/2 now, seems like a long time, but I know it will fly by. I just get overwhelmed sometimes.
Last night I told your Nana (my mom) about you. I was going to wait to tell her for a long time, like everyone else, but I just couldn’t wait. Part of me knew she needed some happy news and part of me knew I needed her. It’s been rough because she and I disagreed for awhile not too long ago, but I hope we are past that and can both move on for the sake of family. She’s thrilled, as I knew she would be and already declared that you’d be spoiled rotten! She’s also reminding me to NOT STRESS OUT!
I’m lucky to have the people that I do, and you’ll love them all. That dad of yours is the most amazing man I’ve ever known and is so good to me and he’s already so proud of you.
I try to remind myself when I’m feeling stressed, that this is my only “first pregnancy” and to step back and enjoy it, bloating and all! It’s a crazy experience, but I feel thankful that I get to experience all of it.
I hope you’re keeping nice and toasty warm in there, because it’s icy cold outside and mama is NOT happy about it!
And chill out on my skin, okay? These monster zits are SO not glamorous!