Dearest little bean,
It’s Monday again. The weekends go by way too fast! But this last weekend was a doozy finding out about you! We still can’t believe it and are still so excited!
I took my first belly pic yesterday. It’s an optical illusion. I’m definitely not showing yet, but it’s like in “What’s Eating Gilbert Grape?”…mama’s fat…and she just has a belly anyway. Although, you are causing insane amounts of bloat these days, that is already making clothing uncomfortable. And also, please excuse my sickly appearance. It was a very lazy Sunday and I didn’t get much sleep on Saturday night. Building a human is hard work! I’m so tired, but can’t sleep sometimes.
|4.5 weeks along. Photo taken for later comparisons when I’m a whale.
I have been SO hungry! It’s really ridiculous. I never expected that with a first pregnancy, but here I am…eating everything! But don’t worry, I’m eating lots of healthy goodies. It’s not at all my intention to have to be removed from my house with a crane when I go into labor…so I made sure to stock up on good stuff. But I can’t seem to stay full. You are a HUNGRY little bean!
I’m taking extra trips to pee all the time too. We went to see a movie yesterday and I couldn’t hold it through the movie. Usually I have a Hulk bladder, but that quickly changed! I’m dying of thirst all the time too, so I’m drinking plenty of water, which doesn’t help the bathroom situation. I have had to quit my beloved Coke and Coke Zero to keep you healthy, at least, for now. I just want to make sure you’re growing healthy and strong these first few months.
Going to work today was different, just knowing you’re with me. And paranoid me thinks that somehow someone will notice you’re here too! But it’s just because keeping this BIG secret is nerve-wracking. I also took the time to read up on my health care coverage. You’re already expensive! But I guess we knew that 😉
Your dad is being REAL cute, calling me mama and shiz…gives me butterflies. And when I went to bed last night he said, “Get lots of rest, for you and my baby.” It still sounds and feels strange to be in this moment, but so far, I love it. I’m so glad you’re made of he and I.
I called my doctor to make an appointment, only to find out that I haven’t been in so long that I’m now considered a new patient and they aren’t taking new patients. I was devastated. But the assistant said she would talk to the doctor and see what could be done. You see, your mama had a big health scare awhile back and it took her a long time to find a good doctor that she trusted. THIS IS THE DOCTOR!!! I’m keeping my fingers crossed because I love her, and you will too. It’s stressing me out and I’m trying to stay positive.
Lots of things going through my head today, and it’s time for yet another snack. But definitely not buttered pop tarts like Jessica Simpson…although, the thought intrigues me. But gaining 70 pounds while pregnant is not worth it.