Dearest little bean,
We had a really big week. Let’s talk about it…
On Tuesday we had our BIG ultrasound! You’re looking perfect these days, your heart is strong and your brain is looking fabulous. I’m positive you’re going to be really smart, like your mama… Your very healthy, have the most adorable nose and weight about 10 ounces, you tiny little bean, you!
We also found out that you’re a GIRL! And we couldn’t be more thrilled! I can’t believe I have a daughter. It feels amazing, but daunting too, because your mama (and daddy) have a big task ahead of them, raising a strong woman. The world can be cruel to all walks of people, and right now you’re safe and snug inside me, protected. But while you grow up in this world, I can’t protect you from everything, though I’m sure I’ll try, and that’s scary. But I just know you’ll be a smart, capable girl. We’ll make sure of it. All my life, since I was very young, I imagined a daughter in my life, and here you are…
It’s been surreal knowing this little piece of info about you this week. And thinking back on all of the milestones and events surrounding this pregnancy, knowing you were a girl, all this time! I’m sorry I told people you were a boy so much, it just seemed likely, at the time. Until recently, when I felt it was you all along. You and I had chats about it in the car on the way to work. You were (basically) the only one I told in recent weeks that I thought you were a girl. I kept it between us, because it was a special feeling, and it was a legit feeling!
We FINALLY got to see one of your big brother’s baseball games this week also, since it didn’t get rained out! I missed the first game, but watched the second game and was ecstatic when your brother was put in the game! He struck out at his only at-bat, but I’m still so proud of him. Official high school baseball player…so cool. I think you knew, too, because you were kicking me while I was at the fence getting a picture of him. I’m pretty sure you were “air-five-ing” him, or possibly waving a big, foam finger around.
Your little kicks are getting stronger too! Which I love, but that also make it hard to fall asleep at night, because you take after your dad and are a night owl! But I love knowing you’re in there, not that you haven’t been in there for 20+ weeks, but for so long it was hard to believe I was actually growing a baby in there!
We hit the halfway point this week too! On the downward journey now, and it seems so strange. I JUST found out I’m pregnant! Or, at least, that’s how it feels!
You also have your first bed. A crib! From your nana & papa! And I’m so excited about it. So much so, that your dad thinks I’m nuts for wanting it set up almost 5 months early. I can’t help it…I just want to stare at it.
Thanks for the best week, ever…(so far)