Dearest little bean,
Mother’s Day. A special day to celebrate moms everywhere and the special women in your life.
This year, you and I are together for this special day, and I’m loving every minute of it. We haven’t (technically) met yet, but I already feel so beyond lucky to be your mama. My heart is filled with so much love for you, it hurts. Dreaming about the future, with you in it, is so amazing and brings my heart so much joy. And to be able to share all of this with your dad and Brennan, is just the icing on the cake.
My mom, your nana, was/is a wonderful mother. Sure, we butt heads at times, but who doesn’t?! No one likes to admit that mom is right, except for you, because you’ll always know that I’m ALWAYS right…right?! But I love her more than life. I hope that you and I can be as close as she and I are and always be friends, in addition to mother and daughter.
She sent a beautiful box of chocolate covered strawberries to me at work, to wish me a happy pregnancy and congratulate me on my gift…you…I cried, of course.
I also received a beautiful box of pink macarons at work, in honor of you (and I), from Kelsey and Katrina, who you’ll just adore! They’re the amazing daughters of one of my greatest friends in life, Connie. It was so thoughtful, sweet and unexpected, I cried then too…the box was tied with a bow and cute, pink rattle.
Just know that you are one of my greatest achievements in life, perhaps THE greatest. and I cannot wait to mother and nurture you and teach you how to be a loving and compassionate young woman. We have a bright future, and I love you so very much, my sweet little bean.
Someone said to me the other day that I’m not a mother yet, because I’m still pregnant. Not only was it rude, it was hurtful and an unnecessary comment to make. So I kindly reminded them, that aside from being pregnant, I also have a young man in my life, your brother, who I help care for on a daily basis. And thought I’m not Brennan’s mother, we’ve spent enough time together now and we have a special bond that no one else has. We argue, we laugh, I’ve seen him cry, I’ve helped him mend boo-boos, I attend all sorts of sports activities, I yell at him for eating too much junk, which he hates, but someday he’ll know I was just looking out for him… I’ve been in his life for 7 years now, and been in his life mostly every day since he came to live with us full-time almost 4 years ago. James and Brennan have always made sure to recognize me on Mother’s Day. Last year they bought me the most amazing owl bird bath that I just love. And I am thankful to have Brennan in my life. He has taught me so much.
So to respond to this person on a deeper note, no, I have not birthed a child, but I’m a believer that you don’t have to birth a child to be celebrated on Mother’s Day. I have many women in my life who are so very important to me, and who now love you too. They are all special…as are your aunts, your cousins, your grandmothers, your great-grandmother and great-aunt, my friends and co-workers…and so many others…
Any woman who can teach you, guide you, and be a strong female presence in your life should be celebrated on Mother’s Day, and feel that they deserve the recognition for being someone who has contributed positively to your life.
So, happy mother’s day to me…YOUR mama…
My heart beats for you.